Spacefem (spacefem) wrote,

sleep update

Last Saturday, when Josie stayed awake and cranky until 5 in the morning, we were pretty sure she had no idea what nighttime meant. Well, somehow she restarted... Sunday night she slept great, last night she slept great. In fact last night we were wakeup-free until 3am which is a new record! So WTF. Apparently she generally knows she should sleep at night, just totally didn't feel like it Saturday?

Most nights there's an obvious change in her when you compare it to the day. During the day, it's kinda tough to get her down for a nap, she sleeps for an hour then wants to be awake. At night it's "wake up, cry, diaper change, nurse, sleep". We did nothing magical to teach her this, it's just a natural maturity that's happened because it's dark and she's human. Weird. I guess Saturday she just wanted to keep us on our toes.

I've been better about sleeping at night too. This breastfeeding stuff... it has its pluses and minuses. It's so nice to feed her without having to prepare a bottle. Breastfeeding means you've always got food ready, you don't have to check the expiration date, it's already at the right temperature and you never have to run to the store. Awesome. What's bad is that I kept waking up at night feeling really full of milk, so as Josie's slept more, I haven't. I was pumping when I woke up because I figured hey, might as well add to the freezer stash. I only recently realized that I was screwing myself over, because as long as I'm pumping at night I'll be producing a ton of milk at night, making me uncomfortable and waking me up every four hours even after my kid has matured past that. Damn. And the freezer stash is excessive at this point.

I had a dream last night that I'd actually had quadruplets. Two more girls and a boy. I'd barely noticed then because I'd treated Josie as my favorite, she was the only one on the birth announcement and the only one with a baby book, and I felt terrible about it. I didn't even know the names of my other babies. I asked people who'd been feeding them, and they were like, "Oh, you! They're all nursing, it's just that you're so tired and distracted you barely noticed who we brought you."

Work has been hectic. I went back part-time, with a goal of just working half days. But I forgot how fast-paced my job is! Four hours is nothing. I've stayed into the afternoon most days, just trying to wrap things up and get some traction. I have a feeling full time will fly by, too. This whole summer is just gone.
Tags: breastfeeding
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