I was in shock! I mean seriously, I'd really gotten in a mental state that we were going to see some boy parts, and when she told us and I asked if she was SURE I felt really bad for even making a big deal about it, or thinking about it period. Why did I ever want a girl, or a boy? What do I think I'm getting with either one?
But the rest of the ultrasound was lovely and fun, the pictures on a video screen turn out much better than still images, you can really make things out better. Our baby has all the parts I'd hoped for... legs, arms, toes, a brain, ears, eyes, stomach, heart with four chambers (so it's not an amphibian!). Her mouth was moving a lot, like she was chewing... or (I'm afraid) practicing to do a lot of mouth-running later in life. I thought she looked kinda leggy. The tech said she was measuring a little big... about what a 20W fetus would, but I'm only at 19W, she said that wasn't a huge deal but the baby probably won't be born small. I figured as much.
I will not be posting sonogram pictures, because it's not worth scanning them in and frankly I never look at anyone's sonogram pictures, they all look like either splotchy clouds or aliens.
I do have pictures of myself though! Okay, let's celebrate this exciting day with a look at my bigness, which I think has changed:
On the left: me at 15 weeks. On the right: me at 19 weeks (today). Different? I feel changed. I feel like this shirt is not going to do for every side view picture I post for the next five months.
One of the "your pregnancy week by week" blogs warns that around this time, you might feel REALLY FREAKING PREGNANT but people don't see it quite like you do. Okay, I'll believe it. Every time I tell someone I'm pregnant they do this funny little downward ab glance at me, looking for signs, as if they hadn't noticed anything unusual before. How could they not? I feel... big! But maybe it's just me, and my clothes not fitting, and the annoying stretchy feeling I always have. I would not be able to miss it if I tried.