Spacefem (spacefem) wrote,
Spacefem
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inner turmoil


I saw a squirrel get hit by a car last night. It was awful and it's still bugging me. The car in front of me put the brakes on, so I slowed down too and looked for a reason why he'd hit the brakes, and I see this little squirrel bounce happily in front of him and I was happy that the guy in front of me hit the brakes to avoid hitting him. Unfortunatly, there was traffic going the other way too, and BAM got him in mid-air and I was just horrified. I seriously don't even like squirrels and I know what people say about how they're just rats with fuzzier tails but I think I even would have been horrified seeing a rat get hit like this. I turned the radio off and slowed down and about had to pull over, and today I can't stop thinking about it. sorry, that was an awful story, but it's on my mind.

I told a guy at work that story and he told me about the time he ran over his kids' new kitten. That didn't make me feel any better.

Five days until Christmas. I have not packed. I have not addressed a SINGLE christmas card. Mom's present is in the mail. I had to work late and this place is a mess. I had a good weekend though. Went to two christmas parties; both were quite fun. After a party last night, I went to the mall. It was about 7:00 and I figured it was still open because the parking lot was pretty full, but not totally full because nobody expects the mall to be open Sunday night. That was one of the key things I learned from working at the mall: during the holiday season, we keep really different hours. We'd open at 8:00 a.m. and it'd always be dead until 11:00 or so, then people would just decend and conquer. So if you want to go to the mall during Christmas, always call and get their holiday hours so you miss the peaks.

BUT I digress... I walked around and looked at the tables of sweaters that'd been torn apart, the sparkly deals, the people everywhere, and it was neat. I felt cool and Christmassy, like I was finally ready for the season. I didn't do any shopping, I just took it all in, and thought about who all the shoppers might have in mind for each of their purchases. I people-watched. I listened to the music. I thought about going home to my family, where we have perfect Christmasses every year.

I feel warm now just typing it all out.
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