December 28th, 2003



I officially have no voice. I stayed home from JL's party last night with the hope that I'd not get sick... the sore throat I'd had the past two days kept getting more painful. Then this morning I woke up and just flat out can't talk.

I need to go home. Get out of town, spend some time feathering the nest and not talking. I would have loved to have gone to mike's party tonight but what the hell good will it be now? I can't not talk. Seriously. I'd just strain myself to death and gesture frantically at people all night and probably make someone else sick which would suck. I don't really feel all that bad, which is nice because for a while I was afraid I'd caught my sister's death plague or whatever. But I'm coughing a lot. Uhg.

And so it seems that my time here has ended. My power is gone. I will diminish into the west, and remain Spacefem.

made it

I made it home. I still can't talk. It's freaking me out. You know those stories about religious people who take vows of silence and whatnot? How the hell does that work? I'd explode if I took a vow of silence. I might explode now.

I got home and couldn't talk to my parakeets. I never even realized I did talk to my parakeets. What's wrong with me, they're birds! But they're sitting there looking at me expecting it... I've had this whole speech communication thing going with my pets that I didn't even know about.

Stopped at a store. Couldn't thank any clerks, just had to smile at them.

Oh well. I plan to sit here and drink tea and nurse myself back to health. I'm sure by tomorrow I'll be okay again. I hope I'm okay again.

There's all these stories about computer nerds who get that way by withdrawing into themselves and always being the "quiet one"... I guess in a way I could have been quiet once, and I'd certainly call myself a thoughtful person. But I don't keep my thoughts to myself, online or in the real world. I got some things to say.

Maybe I should learn sign language in case this ever happens for an extended period of time.

In other news I'm coughing up some facinating substances so I've got that to keep me entertained for a bit, yup.