September 9th, 2002


do we get dental?

Orientation totally rules! I can't believe they only have it once a month, for two days, for us new employees. We play games, have snacks, watch movies, get to go outside... it's better than college! I'm gonna ask my boss if I can go again next month, he'll probably say no, but it's worth a try.

I learned today that the man who made our first airplane and founded the company only had a fifth grade education. Granted, this was in 1910 or so when education wasn't quite as common, but it's weird to think that we wouldn't even hire him as a janitor now.

The other cool thing about orientation is that I've gotten to have some real true discussions with guys who are going to work in the plant or service center. Find out their backgrounds, what they love about aircraft, what they hate about engineers, those things. Most of them had prior experience fixing planes, so it's not like they're like me. A guy came in to talk about the union, it's almost $40 a month to be a union member but you don't have to do it. The workers seemed indecisive about it. One of them asked me if I was going to join, I told him that I didn't think I was invited, since I'm not hourly or anything. I don't know how to feel about unions, I keep hearing these horror stories about other companies, where an engineer picks up a bolt off the floor and gets fired because that's someone else's job. Or lines where employees sit around three hours every workday, but no one's allowed to yell at them because they're union. But the idea of unions is so noble. They're supposed to accomplish something. hrm.

We learned about benefits. I have a lot of life insurance on me through the company, you know? I'm used to having that comfort in knowing that if someone offs me, what my parents will get will barely cover my debt and funeral expenses. Now things will be... um, very nice. I was going to make my sister my primary beneficiary, as a joke to mom and dad more than anything, but now I'm thinking I'll go ahead and list mom. My sister's kinda shady sometimes. Now that it's a real amount of money, she might think about it.

I'll retire sometime around the year 2045. By then, I'll be running SuSE Linux 52.1 or something like that!

On the way home, I stopped by this used CD store to see if they had this ben folds CD I've been considering. They didn't. But they did have seasons I, II, and III of Star Trek: The Next Generation for $80 each on DVD. oooh! I stopped and had a thankful moment that my credit card was canceled. If I had the gold card, my whole "stop spending money" might have been shot to hell all right there.

I feel good.

fighting the battles

You know what I've decided gets to me? It's been getting to me for months, I just never really had the chance to vocalize it until just now, because it's all suddenly clear.

Online anger.

Anger towards what someone writes, or a picture they made, or a website they launched. I get angry e-mail about my site all too often. It's because someone thinks the militant feminist quiz is really encouraging man-killing. It's because someone didn't get "genius" on my intelligence test, and they're obviously a genius.

And you know what? I just don't get it. My site is stupid. Why would anyone take that much time to write something so harsh? I just type up my usual reply back telling them to relax, my site is a joke, most people think it's funny, some don't and that's okay, if you don't, then don't go to the site.

I don't think I'm like that. I have gotten angry online before, yes, but it's always been about a situation that happened in real-life, with people I interact with. Not some doofus four states away.

I see stuff that makes me angry. But I don't think writing angry e-mail, or making an angry post, will solve the problem. I figure, if someone says something so wrong to make me mad, they're not worth my time. If I think they're so stupid, or bitchy, or worthless, that their opinion is 100% wrong, I go away. They are not worthy to get an e-mail from me.

She-net gets angry sometimes, you know? I've read some threads that just got downright mean. I think most of them are about George W. Bush. Politics are not worth my anger either, so I stay out.

Livejournal is all about different opinions. Can't that be okay? Can we just please not get mad at each other? Is that so hard? If people think my opinion proves that I'm moronic white trash, why do they read my journal? Why can't they just take me off their list, like the four people did yesterday?

I guess when I think about it, I did call someone an asshole once. That probably wasn't nice, even when I wrote it I meant it lightly, but it didn't come out lightly, it came out mean. And I shouldn't have done that. I had a lot of support from all of you (well, probably 90% of you), but that didn't mean anything. I should have curbed my words and calmed the situation down.

Online communication is just... not worth getting excited about.