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My phone rings at work today, and I can tell from the caller ID that it's someone from the computer support desk. He was making sure they had my computer number right, had me read off the serial number on my RS station and then I had to run off so I didn't have time to ask him why he needed that information. I mean, from the caller ID thing I could tell that he was in fact on the support desk. But then I started wondering why, four days before layoffs, they're double-checking my numbers?

Did you know that the unemployment rate in Luxembourg is only 2.7%?

Seriously, I know you all don't believe in signs, but this could be my sign. Get the hell out of Kansas, spacefem. I went to a party a long time ago, with some friends of my parents, and they told me, "You're young, with no family and no house. Don't worry about a job! You can get a plane ticket around the world for $2000... don't think about it, don't plan it, just go. You are tied to nothing, do you know how much I'd love to be you again some days?"

At the time, I was thinking, "Great, but even that's $2000. I don't have $2000."

I do now


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Mar. 27th, 2003 04:59 pm (UTC)
I think I could scrape together $2000. I'll go with you. :)
Mar. 27th, 2003 05:26 pm (UTC)
*twitches foot, hears chains dangle, looks down at the shackled, slightly scabbed ankle, and thinks "Go, and send us a post card!". -- his imaginery friend chides in " " -- which means, roughly, "Yeah, get the Hell out of Dodge. Send him a post card. Or twelve. He likes post cards."*
Mar. 27th, 2003 05:45 pm (UTC)
Amen to making challenges into good situations, or whatever the self-help term is.
Mar. 27th, 2003 06:03 pm (UTC)
I got laid off my job in 1999 and stayed in Europe until 2002 it was way worth it. You deserve to enjoy your life so make a point of doing something nice for yourself.
Mar. 27th, 2003 06:07 pm (UTC)
Save your money
all predictors say the economy won't recover until mid 2004.

Though it'd be great to go "see the world", things are down enough everywhere right now that I'd recommend putting it off for at least another year.

"Did you know that the unemployment rate in Luxembourg is only 2.7%?"

Do you realize how small Luxembourg is? What do they even do there? 'We speak French, yet, we are not French!'... scary.
Mar. 27th, 2003 06:18 pm (UTC)
Re: Save your money
I don't think I'll go see the world. Just part of it. Leave here with the clothes on my back, get a job, take the risk, learn a new language... what's the worst that can happen? You can run the website while I'm gone.

As for Luxembourg, it's about the size of rhode island, apparently. but if I can work there, I don't care!
Mar. 27th, 2003 06:41 pm (UTC)
Re: Save your money
I heard that one of my cousins is the technical director for their airport, or something like that.
Mar. 27th, 2003 08:05 pm (UTC)
Re: Save your money
the worst that could happen is that you'll realize that they also have no job openings, just like everywhere else right now.
Mar. 28th, 2003 07:31 am (UTC)
Re: Save your money
Yeah, we don't have any jobs either, but come and visit anyway.
Mar. 27th, 2003 06:48 pm (UTC)
I've thought about this sort of thing before without putting any serious consideration into it. I think the problem is that (for me at least and I presume many others) long term goals render short term freedom inaccessable. If I want to go into the field I want I need a PhD meaning I need to go to grad school. Later on I'll need to do post-doc work. I don't have any real freedom because if I decide to just get a shit job and an apartment I've just gone and fucked myself. I lose almost 22 years of work towards something in order to briefly do something that may not even be that good an idea to begin with.

I think that largely life is made up of very small decisions and causes. Very rarely do people make big, life-changing moves and come out for the better. You go to school, you graduate, maybe you hang around town for a few years, you get a job somewhere and maybe you move. Maybe you move in with someone you're dating or move to go live with them wherever they're going to school or work. A slow, steady progression of houses and jobs and maybe moving somewhere you want to live if you can afford it, don't already have a job, can find a job there, etc. In the end we really have very little choice in our lives if we want to come out alright on the other end.
Mar. 27th, 2003 07:44 pm (UTC)
I disagree. It might be different for what you're doing, but where I work, everyone took such different paths to get to where they are. I thought I was the standard... I graduated high school, went to college, had an internship, graduated in four years, started a career. But when I got there I found I was actually the exception and not the rule. In my group of four, I'm the only one who went straight into college after high school... one guy was military and the two others dinked around a bit before getting their degrees.

If you want your life to be secure, you make small decisions and follow a careful path. If you want success, you might have to make a jump somewhere along the way. I've read too many stories about millionaires with their own companies to believe that playing it safe is the way to go.
Mar. 27th, 2003 09:46 pm (UTC)
risks make it worthwhile
I'm inclined to agree with you on this. I'll be 33 this year, and I'm planning to pull my roots out of California — roots I planted here in the first place, because I took a chance years ago and headed into the great unknown — and move across the country. I have no financial security net, no house, no contacts in Florida, no family there, nothing; but I'm going to do it anyway, because I've always wanted to live there.

I let my passion for computers and electronics guide me through my youth, so I never went to college, instead teaching myself everything I know, and I've done quite well for myself as an adult (except for right now, of course; how lovely).

I struggled with this idea of moving away pretty intensely for awhile, believing that I was getting too old to do something like this and that I have other responsibilities to consider, but in the end these were just unconscious fears instilled by watching too much TV and listening to the suffocating whines of too many people tethered to their hometowns by small families and small minds.

I've crashed and burned as hard as can be done, but I survived, and so will you if it should happen. I'm the oldest of ten children and I'm the only one who doesn't live within ten miles of everyone else in little-bitty central Missouri. I don't think any of them have even considered what you're considering. I say do it. Throw a dart at a map and do it.
Mar. 28th, 2003 06:12 am (UTC)
You're really hungry, so you buy a big meal. It costs a not insignificant amount of money. Halfway through, you're completely full. Do you keep eating, because you already spent all that money, or do you heed your new feelings, and leave the rest? How much you've invested in working towards something shouldn't be a factor in deciding whether or not to continue.
Mar. 28th, 2003 03:16 pm (UTC)
Re: eating
amen to that! I especially wish I could pound this into someone's head when I hear them say, "I can't break up with my significant other, we've been together so long and I have so much invested in this relationship..." sah-mack!
Mar. 28th, 2003 06:49 pm (UTC)
Re: eating
Make that two sah-macks! One for me, too. Good grief, ppl. Get a LIFE.
Mar. 28th, 2003 11:11 pm (UTC)
Re: eating
erm... about the food. i'd take it in a doggie bag, cuz i paid for it, and i'd want to eat it later. lol but i dig what you're saying.

about the relationship thing... so many factors play in that. i know it's not good to stay just because of time. but it's hard when you love someone, and it's even harder starting over. lol i dunno. i'm at the end of a bad breakup... sucks when.

anyway... for the love of god go. see something. make a little piece of life just yours. see something you want to see very badly. take lots of pictures and things, but more importantly remember it as well as you can. that's my advise. :x lol
Mar. 28th, 2003 10:33 am (UTC)
Coincidentally, last night (before reading this entry), I had a dream that Saddam invaded the US, and the one place where there was a giant massacre of innocents was Kansas. The stupid guy just wiped out basically the whole state. And in my dream, I thought to myself "Oh, no! Spacefem!"

-the girl who is having a problem with nightmares.
Mar. 28th, 2003 10:42 am (UTC)

Mar. 28th, 2003 06:51 pm (UTC)
And baby makes three
*Raises hand*

Me, too!

Mar. 31st, 2003 07:22 am (UTC)
asset management?
People come around our building approximately yearly to write down the asset management tags on our computers and the location of said computers. They may have been doing something more innocent like that. Let's hope.
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