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I went to a seminar on mindfulness. It was amazing. We were there almost three hours, I don't have the attention span to do anything for three hours, I hate spending time anyplace because I am so buried in work, but that's part of why I took the seminar.

I've been stressed. We talked about physical reactions to stress, the health effects, and feeling it, I admitted that lots of times lately I FEEL the stress, when it all comes down. In my body and stomach and chest and lungs. And my thought it always, "Well I hope that goes away." How stupid have I been? Given my family history of heart disease, and my scientific mind having read WELL DOCUMENTED studies about how stress can kill you, my thought is always "well that's weird." Not, "Whoh, pull over, let's reflect a bit, let's take the bad thoughts and put them in a mental container, off to the side, slow down and organize."

Let's talk about the yelling at work! When I'm getting a panic call at 6:30 in the morning of "something doesn't work we need your team HERE NOW" My response is HOLY SHIT BE RIGHT THERE WHO ELSE NEEDS A CALL I'M IN IT I'M IN IT I'M IN IT.

What I need to do... calm down the person on the phone. Focus on what they need. Get information. I have this basic set of questions written down, I just ignore them because.

I am pulled into high-adrenaline situations like gravity.

Anyway, one thing we talked about was picturing a safe, happy, wonderful place from our memories when life gets stressful.

I pictured my home, the sacred couch, a warm blanket... that's happened a few times at work, my mind drifts back to the couch, but it immediately makes me sad that I'm not there. I'll close my eyes and try to teleport out of whatever awfulness is happening around me.

I pictured the river, floating with friends in a canoe, the sun through the trees, again, I wake up and I'm not really there and I'm sad.

A third happy place came to my mind. I'm on an airplane. It's taken apart, it's in work, I have test equipment. We're talking through a system and what changed. We're showing how it works, and it works. This happens all the time and it's the best feeling. I'm not in the cockpit, I'm someplace weird... on top of the wing, or crouching back in the tail, some weird connector, I know where it is, I'm confident.

Suddenly I remembered that I like my job and all of this is for something, there's an end goal. We'll get there. I know, because we always get there, even if it's weird. There are happy people on my team who seem unshaken by the stress. There are less productive people who add to it. I will align myself with the happier ones, because they're coming with me and we've all got the same goal. Sometimes it's a bad road to get there but it's a good end. I can be good at organizing everything needed to get us there, if I focus and don't let the negativity eat me.

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davesmusictank
Jan. 26th, 2017 04:47 pm (UTC)
That seminar sounded interesting although three hours wooed make me restless.
spacefem
Jan. 26th, 2017 04:58 pm (UTC)
Amazingly, I did not lose my mind! Yes, going in I was sure I'd be checking the clock, checking my phone, thinking about when I could get email, but they kept it moving and the exercises we did really drew me in and I wasn't wanting to be anywhere else. For me, that's REALLY weird!
sunneschii
Jan. 26th, 2017 05:15 pm (UTC)
Oh, I did something like this two years ago. It was amazing.
anais_pf
Jan. 26th, 2017 06:13 pm (UTC)
It horrifies me that so many people are expected (or even required) to answer phone calls from work at odd hours of the day and night. I don't answer the phone at 6:30 AM, period. If a phone call wakes me up, I might listen to the voicemail message before deciding whether to call back, but there are not a lot of situations I can think of where catastrophe would happen if ordinary employees (not that I'm calling you ordinary) did not respond during off-hours.
secret_woman
Jan. 26th, 2017 07:31 pm (UTC)
Sounds like you got a lot out of the seminar. Stress is truly bad for you. It can literally make you sick. I was a 911 dispatcher and constantly dealt with high stress calls. I got so good at disconnecting and simply gathering the information that I still can't get the feelings and sympathy back even though I no longer work there. It's hard to explain. It took me lots and lots of practice! I love that you are learning to deal with the stress better. I think your way is healthier than mine. Hope it helps you!
luzclarita
Jan. 26th, 2017 08:20 pm (UTC)

Your third happy place is so unique and joyful. I always picture going to my favorite aquarium or wandering the Oregon Coast with a friend.

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