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mother's day

It's been a nice relaxing weekend.

Friday night I played Bunco with some neighborhood ladies, which is disgusting. Way to suburbanite for me. And let me say, Bunco is a totally stupid game, there's no strategy, you just roll dice and... well that's it. But it allows for talking and socializing which is nice, and the gals were cool and there was lots of wine. I realize wine isn't a huge draw for me now but it WILL BE, and it'd be nice to have some nearby people I recognize.

Saturday we went shopping, then hit up a graduation party at night. Oh, and I took a walk. A long 30 minute walk. And I'm sad to say it kicked my ass, by the time I was done my back was killing me, my hips were aching. I need to do that more often apparently. I'd quit working out (going to the club and doing elliptical) when we moved because I figured moving was working out, and we were pretty cramped for time, but since the housewarming party I've had no excuse.

Today we went out to look for furniture. Our old apartment had a HUGE bedroom closet... our house does not. We have no place for anything. There aren't 15 feet of shelves lining the walls. Anyway there was nothing in the world we loved, so we came back home. We took my inlaws out to dinner for mother's day, went to an italian place, they were super busy. They stayed and talked until 9:00 or so but I was feeling run down and not real into the conversation so I went upstairs to make sure my work clothes for the week were ready.

Mother's day inspired me to add a daily countdown to my pregnancy script, so I could tell that I was 33 days away from my predicted date of motherhood. I did no more mothering this weekend than I ever do... I ate, I napped, I incubated. The date's getting close, isn't it? At the store I bought a thing of yogurt, and noticed it was set to expire on June 11th just like my pregnancy.

The baby feels big. Sometimes I see little bulges on my stomach where baby parts are stretching out, sometimes a whole side of me is pushed out and harder, totally uneven, and I wonder if I'm feeling a whole body pressed up against the side needing more room. One of us is moving all the time... when I'm walking around, I don't notice her, I think she's tucked in and happy, but when I sit down she stretches out and wants to be seen. And when I lay down, she moves around to find a good position, and when I flip over, she moves around again based on that. It's weird. It's good that it's all been so gradual, otherwise it'd totally freak me out.

Scientifically speaking, I've decided that any anxiety about childbirth is eased by the increasing discomfort and weirdness of pregnancy. You're supposed to look forward to delivery, supposed to feel unintimidated by it, supposed to feel like it's the right thing to happen. Sometimes when I'm seeing all this baby movement I get this little twinge of feeling like, "Okay hon, you're a person. You're supposed to be out on your own like the rest of us, eating your food, wearing clothes, looking around." Those little twinges get longer and closer together every day. It won't be long until I feel strongly like it's time to evict the child, and then giving birth will seem like the most right thing in the world. When I got pregnant I remember telling the guys at work that I felt weird about it, there wasn't some magic womanhood part of me that made me feel like it was normal to let something inside me grow to 7-9 pounds and work its way out, I was completely freaked to be honest... but maybe the magic part of my brain was there all along? Or it didn't have to be so magic anyway.

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sharya
May. 10th, 2010 04:56 am (UTC)
Funny thing about all that movement - so it seems that the baby sleeps when you are awake and moving about - apparently all that movement rocks it to sleep. But when you lie down and stop moving, that's when the baby wakes up, and that's when you're most likely to feel movement.

It's interesting to keep track of the baby's sleep/wake cycles in the womb... they aren't that much different once the baby's out!
deana_in_texas
May. 10th, 2010 05:32 am (UTC)
When you're walking around, it's probably a nice rocking motion that puts her to sleep :)
astrogeek01
May. 10th, 2010 01:09 pm (UTC)
heh about your # of weeks, I was feeling pretty much like OMG GET IT OUT ALREADY. I'm sure that was a big part of you're feeling it on that walk.

Awesome for already socializing with the neighborhood people. We finally did that in year 5. Of course we got to know the people right next door and across the street before then, but it was good to get to know many of the other folks on the street. (it's a very short street)
koremelanaigis
May. 11th, 2010 03:38 pm (UTC)
You could roll four sided dice to increase your chances for the first four rounds (at the cost of having no chance in the last two), or you could be like Big Julie from 'Guys and Dolls' and roll dice without spots but remember where the spots formerly were.

I found it rather exciting when I bought some camembert cheese that was best before my baby's due date, although the baby ended up coming out three weeks before the date on the cheese.
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